Sweet baby....

Today I guess I hit bottom. Some days I feel fine, others I can't seem to take much more. I love being pregnant and feeling this beautiful life growing inside me. But I guess being pregnant back to back like this is finally taking a toll on me, emotionally and physically. I want Jacen to get here safe and sound it is driving me crazy and I am to the point I almost cant take it anymore. My body is aching all the time, I feel sometimes like I just cant go on not because I dont want too but because I feel like my body is done and going to fail me yet again. I dont guess it helps any that this pregnancy and every pregnancy here on out there will be no middle. I mean its great that he kicks and is so strong but I freak because all I can think is " Is he getting twisted up or tangled in his umbilical cord?" and when he isnt as active or sleeping I freak out too because then I think "maybe something has already happened and yet again I was ignorant to it" Its driving me crazy! These days I feel that I am on the verge of biting anyone and everyone's head off at any moment. Am I going to make it? Is Jacen going to make it here to me healthy and screaming? I guess these are questions that wont get answered until B-Day! Please get here safe and fast little monkey.